Every time I think about it, it hurts my heart.
I can't take it anymore.
He doesn't know what hes doing to me.
Nether do my friends.
I can't take it.
I am hurting way to much for my liking.
Its him, its them, its us.
I hurt and I'm sick of it.
He doesn't understand.
Nether do they.
I can't take it.
I just cant.
I hate the way it makes me feel.
Like my chest is going to cave in.
Like my eyes are about to burst.
Like I can't breath.
It feels like I'm under water.
And I can't take it.
I want something to make it go away.
Just to have some peace in my heart.
I don't want to hurt them.
Not my friends or him.
Not them.
I can't do it.
But as I smile I hurt myself.

Too bad I'm not talking about my past psychical pain I used to cause.

I'm moody, and upset. I'm sorry. I feel like I'm going to cry, but I can't not over this.

But I do hurt, more then anyone will know and he will not listen to me, because I can't say those words, just like he can't say them to me.

Peace.
Gracie.